Addicted to this...

Addicted...to this
to you
waking up longing for it, mind doesn't stop thinking about it
lip biting, hand twitching
you tell yourself no more. it has to stop.
but you turn around and get sucked right back into it.
the feeling after, the euphoria.
waiting for the next fix.

distractions...

distractions...
they can take your mind off the real issues temporarily
but not permanently
unless there is persistence, and determination
to forget it, to never remind yourself of it
then maybe, just maybe
the distraction turns into a new longing
a new issue, that may require another distraction for it later on down the road

So alone...

Have you ever felt so alone,

That not even a black hole seemed infinite?

Not even the bluest of skies, and laughter of children could put a smile on your face?

Feeling so desolate, and isolated

Knowing no one could understand or feel

Exactly what you feel

No relation, no acceptance

Diminishing into the darkness

So alone. so alone.

h.O.p.e...

h.O.p.e...
sometimes it takes a lot of hurt, to gain all the most happiness.
to fall to the bottom, with nothing to grab onto.
just air, and dreams that do not really exist.
until you hold onto that flicker of hope, that things will turn around.
to know that, the only way to go when you hit rock bottom
is up.

Forever friends...

Forever my good friend...

No matter what happens,

I will always be there for you

The nitty-gritty, the joyous occasions

The downpour and the sunshine

We fight and bicker

But we make up and love each other

Because the day we became friends

I made the decision to care,

Every bad quality and every good piece of you

Knowing that I am not going anywhere

Change...

Change....

we all go through change, big or small

and as an individual,

we also change

through time

every action we take, every step we make

changes us

changes our lives

but when we look back, we realize that

the change has made us stronger

made us see that in order for us to grow,

we all need to change

Holding Back...



When we hold back in life, do we move forward

Or do we become stagnant?

Is it true that in order to move on, we have to keep walking forward?

Maybe taking a few steps back

Or standing still

Can help put things into perspective

Its not always a race to the finish line



Choices...

They say the choices we make in life define us.
we are faced with decisions every minute of the day.
and we will never know,
what it would be like if we walked down the other fork of the road.
and that, is the beauty of life.
live for today. don't regret the past.
let the choices you make design your future.

Patience...

Patience.
Sometimes it is very hard to have.
Jittery and antsy.
Can't calm the mind.
You try to fix it quickly but it makes it worse.
Now you are stuck with this and all you can do is wait it out.
Can you wait...for yourself to catch up?

Taking that Leap of Faith...

Taking that leap of faith...

Is like walking through a door you have never gone through before.

You are scared to turn that knob.

So you tug and pull, and it swings open.

You stand there looking through that gaping hole.

Into the unknown.

Its scary, and uncertain.

But you give it the chance.

You make the choice...to embrace that leap...

That leap of faith.

To Be Free...

The cold breeze hits my face as I sit and stare into a far far distance.

The brightness of the sunset fills my eyes with tears.

I sit and wonder, what it would be like,

To be free.

To fly without wings and soar through the sky.

To have no worries  and be carefree like a child.

To love unconditionally, and to laugh whole heartedly.

To have loved and lost, than to have never loved before.

it's time...to let go...

its time...to let go.

two very simple words.

yet when put together

become one of the most difficult things to do.

we fear agony. we fear pain.

but we cannot hold on because of these fears.

so it is time.

it is time, to finally let go.

Time Stood Still at that Moment...

time stood still at that moment.

everything froze except for us.

to believe it was happening made my heart beat faster.

to know that it would eventually end made the tears flow harder.

if we could forever live in standstill.

if we would just stop thinking and live it.

then time would no longer have to freeze our moments.